9 May 2014

Give sorrow words.

 “I just feel like all the sand is at the bottom of the hour glass or something.”  ― Adam
Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak knits up the o-er wrought heart and bids it break.”  ― William Shakespeare, Macbeth

Now something so sad has hold of us that the breath leaves and we can't even cry.” Charles Bukowski

And then it was, that grief and pain made themselves known to me as never before. Note this, because I knew the full absurdity of Fate and Fortune. And perhaps the description of this, brief as it is, may give consolation to another. The worst takes its time to come, and then to pass. The truth is, you cannot prepare anyone for this, nor convey an understanding of it through language. It must be known. And this I would wish on no one in the world.” ― Anne Rice, Pandora

    The words and images above are just an expression of what I'm feeling these days. I could have used my own words, what I've been writing, but some of the lines are too personal and in order to share or publish something I need to feel a little detached from it. Something that the passing of time provides. But I feel that sharing these emotions with the help of images and words is liberating and keeps my mind busy. I think it also comes from my love for cinema and literature, 'cause re-watching films about loss and grief, or reading about it, makes me feel that someone else understands what I'm going through right now. Feel united to those characters, to those writers, other people that has lost someone or are enduring with a relative's severe disease, also helps. Besides I've discovered, thanks to a friend, this amazing blog: 'Ekphora: The Grief Project'. And all this made me think that someone else has been there before and that this too shall pass. Positive thinking is the only way to cope with all this bad fate or fortune I'm having, as good old Shakespeare would put it.


Natalie Suarez said...



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s. said...

Beautiful post!

So sorry you are feeling like that these days, I hope everything will be better soon!

Hélène Heath said...

These photos are so emotional. I hope that whatever your going through passes soon.

xx Hélène

Alex Withrow said...

“Re-watching films about loss and grief, or reading about it, makes me feel that someone else understands what I'm going through right now.”

That sentence so perfectly describes why I’m drawn to dark, raw and emotional films. And while I’m actually very rarely sad, depressed or down, I take comfort knowing that someone else “gets it” and was able to translate “it” to the screen so poignantly. When I was editing Earrings, I was going through a personal crisis that I honestly didn’t know how to come out of. Many times during the editing of that film, I was tempted to hold back and not push the emotional brutality. But I always convinced myself “Fuck it, push it farther. Keep going. Someone will understand.” In many ways, making that film helped me heal. Many people have told me that have lived very similar stretches of their lives similarly to how Chlo was in Earrings. And the fact that people are able to connect with it on that level really humbles me.

That’s my long and somewhat self-reflexive way of thanking you for this post. Personal posts like this aren’t easy, but, if you’re like me, they help you grow. Watching Blue, or Persona, Two Weeks in September when you’re down is not a bad thing. It’s reassurance that someone else understands. You’ll feel better, Mara. Maybe not today, and maybe not tomorrow, but you will. I’m so pleased to hear that films help you through as well.

(PS, that photo by Lupe Jelena is one of the best photographs I’ve ever seen. Genuinely, it is flawless.)